Cum laude grad, Top 3 in November 2022 PNLE overcomes physical insecurities

Do not let any insecurities about your body or physical appearance hinder you from showcasing your talent and worth as a person.

Nikka Tan Parulan from Bulacan proved this, after placing Top 3 in the November 2022 Nursing Licensure Examination with a rating of 89.60%. Nikka is a graduate of Bachelor of Science in Nursing from Dr. Yanga College in Balagtas, Bulacan.

Cum laude grad, Top 3 in November 2022 PNLE
Photo courtesy: Facebook/Nikka Tan Parulan

Aside from these, she was also given various awards during their commencement exercises such as Clinical Proficiency Award, Special Citation for Outstanding Research Presentation, Best in Thesis, Best in Oral Presentation, and Fidelity Award.

With all these accolades, it can perhaps be said that Nikka's self-confidence is very high because her academic achievement has proven her excellence.

But in reality, Nikka is actually insecure about her appearance due to her cleft lip and palate. She felt the trauma everytime she needed to speak, especially during class reports and presentations.

This can be read on her Facebook post on June 25, 2022.

“The year was 2018. First year college. Sa totoo lang sobrang takot na takot ako noon. Hindi ko alam kung anong buhay ba ang naghihintay sa 'kin sa college. Hindi ko rin alam kung tama ba tong pinasok ko. Sobrang laking leap of faith talaga ang pagpasok ko ng nursing.”

“Naalala ko pa, sinabi ko na tatapusin ko lang yung 1st sem tapos lilipat na ko ng degree program. Para kasi sa akin, nung mga time na yon, sobrang imposible. Feeling ko hindi para sa akin to. Knowing all my weaknesses and imperfections? Parang di yata talaga ko para dito. I was sooo ready to quit.”

“Paulit-ulit akong humihiling ng signs kay Lord, nanonood ng inspirational videos, at nakikinig ng mga words of wisdom. Kung saan saan pa ko naghahanap ng sign at naghahanap ng sagot, ako lang din pala ang talagang makakapagsabi kung makakaya ko ba o hindi; kung posible ba o hindi. Kasi kahit ano pa lang motivational quotes at inspiring words ang mabasa or marinig mo mula sa iba, kung hindi yon manggagaling sa sarili mo, wala ding mangyayari. Kailangan pala, sa sarili mo unang magmumula yung pagtitiwala.”

“Sobrang dami kong takot na na-overcome at maling paniniwala na na-debunk. Socially anxious kasi talaga ko, tahimik, mahiyain, mababa ang confidence lalo na kapag involve ang speaking. Weakness ko yun. One of my greatest insecurities. Kasi, having a cleft lip and palate, I grow up believing that being different is something to be ashamed of.”

“With all the trauma that I've earned because of it, I learned to hate myself. To seek for validation and acceptance from other people. Naniwala ako na having a disability makes me inferior.”

“Tapos nag-nursing ako, syempre it requires you to talk with people and to be somehow a little extroverted. And it's really hardddd! And daming anxiety at takot ang kailangan kong harapin. Kailangan kong humarap sa mga tao. Ang daming negative thoughts ang kailangan kong i-overcome everytime.”

“But it gets better each time. Sa bawat takot na nahaharap ko, napapatunayan ko na, kaya ko naman pala. It wasn't so bad after all. With each step, I'm starting to reprogram all the negative beliefs na binuo ng utak ko.”

“It was a series of learning and unlearning, healing, patience and self-compassion. I realized that I must also give myself the same amount of love and kindness that I give to other people. Madaming bagay pa rin naman ang hinihiling ko paminsan-minsan na sana ay kaya kong baguhin.”

“Madaming bagay pa rin ang nagti-trigger ng trauma, at mga araw na gusto kong maging jumbo hotdog na lang para kaya ko na 'to. Madami pa ring parte ng sarili ko ang sinusubukan kong mahalin at tanggapin nang buo. Yun kasi yata yung pinakamahirap na part, ang acceptance. But despite all that, I know that I'm getting there. I will get there! Healing isn't linear after all.

At syempre, hindi ko naman maabot ang kinalalagyan ko ngayon kung hindi dahil sa tulong ng mga taong tumulong at sumuporta. Sa pamilya ko, mga kaibigan, mga naging kaklase, teachers, at advisers, maraming salamat po. Sa BSN-4A, I really had the time of my life fighting dragons with you. Lezz go get that RN this Nov!💪”

She thanked her professors, classmates, and other individuals who helped her in her success and in overcoming her insecurities.

“Always remember that we are so full of endless possibilities, don't let anyone, including yourself to tell you otherwise,” she stated.

In recent times, she is now a full-fledged nurse giving her best service to her patients!

Congratulations, Nurse Nikka! You are truly an inspiration to others!

— Noel Ed Richards, The Summit Express



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